 Make it all better when i'm feelin sad Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not Make me feel good when i hurt so bad And I'm so glad i found you" 
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Sunday, October 31, 2010
Hallow
Got all confused.
Pretty stressed up.
Food is the best companion.
Hate is the last thing I would want to do.
Mind over emotion.
Again, I need you to guide me through.
I hate 2010 so much, can??!!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
L is for Love
You dont know how much I miss him.
:`(
Ya Allah,
Jika dia benar untukku
Dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hatiku
Jika dia bukan milikku
Damaikan lah hatiku dengan ketentuan Mu.
Dia lah permata yang dicari
Selama ini baru ku temui
Tapi ku tak pasti rencana Illahi
Apakah dia kan ku miliki
Jika dirinya bukan untukku
Redha hatiku dengan ketentuan Mu
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I wonder,
when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter,
does it break your heart too,
even crack it a little bit?
Somebody,take my life away.
Im feeling so lost.
Sad.
Tired.
Useless.
Emotion running wild.
I cant help crying.
If only theres an end button to life.
Ya Allah, keep me sane.
I want my dad.
:`(
Monday, October 18, 2010
And they say...
You've got to take the good with the bad,
the smile with the sad,
love what you've got,
and remember what you've had.
Always forgive but never forget,
Learn from mistake but never regret.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Something About Dad..
My dad.
He take charge in family's well being.
Despite putting on a role as a strict father,
hes a family man and very loving.
He take good care of the family.
To the extend we depend on him to buy our pyjamas & even our underwears - panties.
Yes, my father buy panties for mom, me, sister & underwears for brother.
Its a routine since I was very young till now.
So at the end of the day, the three women in the family will have the same pattern of panties but different colour &size.
But as I grow older, I buy panties on my own. I fancy cute & colourful panties unlike my sister & mom, they still depend on my father to buy panties for them.
But father will always buy pyjamas for me, that is.
And now that hes temporarily away, we have to survive on our own.
To put it into a simplest way, we dont have someone to buy pjs for us.
As a result,
As a result,
We wear our old pjs over and over again even though if it looks like
this....
I still continue wearing it.
If dad see this, he will go geylang the next day and buy new sets of pjs me.
And those torn pjs, he will take it away & turn it into rag.
Hes one man who will never allow his children, mainly daughters to wear unsightly clothes even at home.
My father.
And funny how I want my future husband to be someone like my dad.
Father figure, family man, loving, caring & at the same time strict & is respected.
Well, I guess I will have a new set of pjs next year.
:)
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Vardil & Migdal Part 2
I have no choice but to use the facial products which cost me a bomb.
I regret it so much.
The mask is oily.
They cheat my feelings!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
The Pain Behind That Smile
Well, I finally get to drag the man to Joo Chiat. We've signed up the bridal package of $2980.
The cute thing about it was, the lady who attend to us said Mr boyfriend looks like Norman Hakim.
I was like, WHAT??!!
NO WAY!
Gosh, why is everyone thinks that way?
And hes so kembang nak mampui.
Menyampah!
On another note, I will start scrimping. And will pay the balance as instalment or just pay everything at one go. Deposit of $500, done!
Now Im surveying for my photographer & videographer.
I fall in love with fit3.
Gonna check out the price & package.
Like I've always said,
I will invest more on bridal & photographer.
As for my deco, I've got daundco in mind. But that can be book last.
Not that important. Will go out survey together with my parents next year.
The lady told me this yesterday;
"when you plan for your wedding, always remind yourself that its once in a lifetime. Enjoy the planning and be happy about it. Do not put your mind in a state where you find this planning is a hassle & get frustrated over it."
A good advice from her because I always thought planning a wedding is such a trouble.
Now I've got my mindset changed.
I hope everything will go smoothly even if theres challenges, I hope I will go through it with a sane & rational mind.
While Im doing the planning,
I got hit by haemmroid.
I swear its painful.
The man doesnt know about my illness.
Gosh, Im lazy to see the doctor.
:(
And in the midst of the planning, I have to save up of at least $7k for the accident the other day.
And I know each bride & groom-to-be will have their own challenges & obstacle to go through.
But I believe it wont be too tough if we continuously remember Allah and have faith in Him.
Not to forget, the parents.
Stay positive, I am.
:)
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Little gift for little angel
Hi baby R.
I felt good when my friend nadiah didnt join me for shopping yesterday.
I know that you dont want anyone to know your name as for now.
Well, Im glad you chose me (besides your mummy & ayah) to know your name like now.
Its so cute how you made your parents behave & look like dumb blacks. Stumble over their own words infront of me, accidentally smsed me and how you manage to reval their 'little secrets' to me.
All that are little clues for me to figure out your name.
They were trying hard to keep your name as a secret till you're born though.
They were trying hard to keep your name as a secret till you're born though.
hehe..
Hence,
mama thought doing something for you.
DIY your little beanie.
Yes!
Im putting your name on your little beanie.
So that your parents dont have to repeat & answer silly question like,
"whats his name??"
Easily, read your name on your beanie!
Mama cant wait to cuddle you in my arms. Those stuffs that I have bought for you, I cant wait to put them on you. I know you will be the significant of Atok.
You will be the little rainbow in my heart & wash my sadness away.
You will bring joy in nenek's life.
You will be missed by atok
and..and...
you will be bullied by busu.
Heck, no one will ever dare to bully you, darling.
Mama love you,
Baby R.
xoxo.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Vardi & Migdal
This entry shall be solely on Vardi & Migdal.
Forget about other stuffs.
Here the story goes..
I splurge over $500 on facial products today.
I dont know if Ive been conned.
I was so upset at myself. Im being ridiculous.
That 500 moo can help me pay mak andam deposit.
Made from Isreal.
I googled about this products. I read forums like cozycot, flowepod etc.
They gave positive responds.
Only thing, the sellers are aggressive.
Yes freaking aggressive. They sweet talk you and make you buy the products.
http://www.asiaone.com/Business/SME%...11-107039.html
I always thought (even now) I have uneven skin tones, I look older than my age, bad dark circles & puffy eyebags.
My boyfriend keep on saying that I look older than my age.
After purchasing those, I called vivian, kak ifah & boyfriend.
Asked them if i look older bla bla bla..
Their answer was NO.
Questioned my boyfriend why he always says so,
hes reply was,
"Im just teasing you. But you look like 25 or 26 like that."
Dear boyfriend,
I hope you could understand that women take man's comments seriously. Especially on beauty topics.
Its a blardy sensitive issue,for me at least.
When you keep on repeating those words,
it makes me frightened, worried & demoralised lor..
Your girlfriend here is way too vain, and you know that.
:(
Now you tell me the truth,
I am 24. Do I look like one?
Me as of today.
Pardon my zit near the chin & blemishes at the forehead.
It happened when theres a change in my diet (fasting month) & when I have period, like now.
Pardon my messy hair.
Im stressed like that.
Pardon my messy hair.
Im stressed like that.
Do leave your genuine comments on my tagboard.
I love listening to the truth.
It doesnt hurt me.
I hope these products work on me.
I pray that no pimples pop out from my face.
This gonna be my first & last for this product. Seriously.
Like, Israel?
How can I support their products when they are literally fighting hard to get hold of Baitul Maqdis?
I am such a moron.
So upset with you, Hidayati.
Oh well,
Period.
'__'
Friday, October 1, 2010
Why?
When I thought its going to be over,
it doesnt.
The only thing I want to do right now is to run to the edge of the world, lie flat and stare blankly.
Im tired.