 Make it all better when i'm feelin sad Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not Make me feel good when i hurt so bad And I'm so glad i found you" 
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Desires~♥
Make My Wish Happen
☐ MacBook Pro
☐ Burberry/Tods Bags
☐ Be Mrs Sani
☐ Morocco/Maldives
☐ Nice Renovated Own House
☑ Get Promoted
☑ Go on a last date
NuffNang~♥
Gossips~♥
Escapes~♥
Worth Reading,
Nadiah
The pasts~♥
Bitter-Sweet Moments ,
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Because I Love Blogging
Swear Im tired. Work is tiring. Have been going home late and I dont like that.
A little much in love because Ive spent my time with andak yesterday after work. Its just a 2hrs meet up and I feel like I had fallen in love all over again. The gazing of eyes, the giggles, the love-fight, the slapping each other's face, its kindda fun. That is romantic. Sounds brute, i know. We are. haha! I need a little space to breathe in happy air.
And we talked about weddings. Its fun.
Anyway,
And we talked about weddings. Its fun.
Anyway,
Here it is,something I would love to share. When you share it means you care.
:D
Beautiful drawing huh?
These people are born with own talents.
I cant stop envying them and I really want to see how they look like in person.
Theres so many things I would love to share but..
I cant say much because confidentiality of my family is the utmost priority.
We are having paparazzis & mamarazzis. Poking their fugly noses to our life.
Different people with one goal ~ to see my family falling apart.
That, will NEVER happen for sure.
Im sorry to disappoint you mama & papa razzis, but thats the truth. My family can never fall apart because God have glued us together.
Despite the fights, cold war within my family, we still stay as one.
Who says my dad has left us? Hes here still, the pillar of strength in the family.
You want to see us live in misery?
You want to see us cry buckets?
You want to see us falling apart?
You want to see us stone broke?
I dont think you able to fufil your debauched goal.
Try harder,perhaps?
Monday, March 29, 2010
PMS NOT!
I came home early today because I dont have the mood to work. Kalau ikut undang2 memang la salah,tapi gue tawakkal ajer la derrr.
Im supposed to have a date with him but I didnt. Im annoyed by his smses and cant be bothered to reply. There goes my date with him. Kindda pissed that I didnt get to go out with him.
Theres some attitude problem in me,but,
Whatever la huh..
And then I have problem downloading my mcafee to my lappie which Ive subscribed with singtel.
And Im like a ball being thrown here and there and at the end of the day, they told me to try downloading it after 12-24hrs. They are trying to fix the bug.
Currenty my laptop is not protected at all.
That makes me,
DOUBLE ANNOYED!
Back to him, hes trying to irritate me in fb by posting on his own wall saying that hes going prawning & town later on, blah blah blah, and even sms me that hes going out for awhile.
Seriously, do i look like i care??
Orang disini tak heran la ape orang disana nak buat.
Whatever!
Current song: Bonnie & Clyde.
Reminisce me during my younger days, listening to that song in sentosa and dance to it.
haha!
Im not that havoc but more to mischevious.
Now, Ive tonned down alot.
Time to change,missy.
I aint grow young anymore.
Dear mood, please be pleasant to me & the rest.
A Hint For Life
I went JB yesterday with my aunt, uncle & my lil cousin. It was an impromptu plan.
Since I was bored and sad because Ive not seen dad for a month and furthermore to hear my mom say hes sick again, it got me all upset and teary.
Initially I was contemplating to go JB because I have planned to meet my sis by the evening. But mom insist of me going JB all because she wants me to learn the route there since I'll be driving out there again soon.
Yes, Im going to drive kak ifah's car to JB.
Im having butterflies in my tummy thinking about it.
Anyway, it was a short getaway. We went angsana, that is.
We love mary brown that much all because they have swing in the restaurant.
And thats my lil cousin, full of corny jokes and I cant stop laughing at her.
And she thinks shes cool whenever I laughed at her.
haha!
After which, we headed down to the book store. And my eyes was like roaming around without a wink.
Books all over and it feels like heaven.
Ok, lets just put it this way, Im a compulsive shopper.
Everything there magnetize my eyes.
And I ended up buying this,
My aunt paid for it though I insist of paying.
If you think, Ive moved on,
you are wrong.
Im still trying to get out of this.
I need these inspiration & motivational books to keep me optimistic in life and not to lose faith in God.
At the end of the day,
At every step I take,
At every move Ive made.
At every breath I take,
At every word I say,
At every single day,
At every time I pray,
I'll be missing my dad.
I pray for your happiness & health out there,dad.
Take care.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Lukisan Alam
Hidup tidak selalunya indah
Langit tak selalu cerah
Suram malam tak berbintang
Itulah lukisan alam
Begitu aturan Tuhan
Jadilah rumput nan lemah lembut
Tak luruh dipukul ribut
Bagai karang di dasar lautan
Tak terusik dilanda badai
Dalam suka hitunglah kesyukuranmu
Dalam senang awasi kealfaanmu
Setitis derita melanda
Segunung kurniaanNya
Usah mengharapkan ke segalanya
Dalam perjuangan penuh pengorbanan
Usah dendam berpanjangan
Maafkan kesalahan insan
Begitu ajaran Tuhan
Dalam diam taburkanlah baktimu
Dalam tenang buangkanlah amarahmu
Suburkanlah sifat sabar
Di dalam jiwamu itu
Friday, March 26, 2010
Just A Little Curse
I had bought a track shoe just today after work thinking to go jogging tomorrow morning.
Its cheap of course. I mean I should get something cheaper for a start right?
It cost me 38bucks ~ dunlop brand. (i swear ive never heard of this brand before)
Pretty excited for tomorrow's activity, so called jogging at the reservoir with my friends, Jean & Vivian, that is.
Went home, thinking of what outfit to wear tomorrow till I open the letter box.
What a nice Friday for me.
A love letter from the traffic police.
How can I not love this??!!
There goes my Saturday-Morning-Jogging-With-Friends.
I have to settle this by 2nd April and tomorrow is the only best day for me.
That means I have to sacrifice my freaking jogging day.
Aku bingit gilerrrrr!!
And Im pratically trying to suck this thing in.
$130, top up a few bucks and I can get a nice pair of NIKE sports shoe.
WA LIAO WEI !!!!!!!
So tomorrow I will be heading down to the famous traffic police headquarter and try my luck to get some liniency.
FOUR FREAKING DEMERIT POINTS!
It matters to me alot hokay!
Here comes the puss-in-the-boots-wannabe.
I seriously hope it works.
And the dude with the speed trap camera,
you're such a bastard, thank you.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Mirror mirror on the wall, tell me whos the prettiest of all.
Omigosh! This is scary & Im getting freaky here. Ive discovered little spot/extra skin just underneath my eyes. So I went to google and Ive found that I may have early stage of xanthomas-skin cholesterol deposits. It looks like Im having it but some of the descriptions doesnt reflects on me.
Im just assuming la.
Ive promised myself to cut down on roti prata telor(which Ive been eating for breakfast almost everyday) & no more cheesy cheese fries which I had everytime I've finished work.
And Im going to start working out on my body as soon as Ive got a partner. I want somebody to run WITH me. Andak is not keen to accompany me. He said he can accompany but hes not going to run with me. Irritating as ever. Or maybe Ive not persuade him enough. You know that kind of girly-manja tone of voice and of course a very very pathetic face(something like puss in boots). I know he will meeeelt.
haha!
Vivian, is so ready to go for an exercise with me but what I need now is spare time. Im so busy with my daily life. Im a nanny/ chauffer to my mom and how can I leave her alone like that?
Can someone teach me about time management?
I think I need a timetable.
By the way, Im looking for aerobics/kick boxing held in CCs, preferably around my area. I wanna join. At the moment, I dont see any activities conducted by CCs.
:(
I swear I need to start working out.
I wanna be a pretty young looking girl.
I wanna be a pretty girlfriend.
I wanna be a pretty gorgeous bride in two years time!
Mirror mirror on the wall, tell me whos the prettiest of all.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
You Make Me Go Wild
I am having cramps and Im expecting turbulence mood from myself cos I just cant stop whining. I think Im catching a fever anytime soon cause my body system is giving way on me. At this moment Im controllong my diet. More cereals, soupy food & plain water and go slow on junks.
Well, I cant wait for April cause andak is bringing me out to resort world. And I took leave for that. Yes, we are going on off peak day which I think is the safest. No long queue, no crowd etc etc..
We cant wait to have the roller coaster ride, I cant wait for the jurassic park or whatever you call that thing and all the entertainment parks. Im doing my research still. So at least I know what to do and expect when we are there.
Im expecting to spend my entire day there. Im going all hippy.
Im expecting to spend my entire day there. Im going all hippy.
I am all geared up for that day.
Ok, dont make me excited.
But I am everytime I think about it.
*Scream*
Thank you boyfren.
You are my bestfriend ever!
Monday, March 22, 2010
Cos the truth hurts
I, at a deeper instinct have been a difficult child. Refusing to answer your questions. Showing my emotion physically and not verbally. Giving that cold attitude. Denying your assumptions and tigh-lipped on your accusations. And it resulted as another burden on you.
And the tears that fall on your cheek,its like another sin that Ive commited and a step closer to hell.
The fact that Im being insensitive towards you,it doesnt makes me feel any better,by the way.
I wished you could hear my heart crying for help.
I wished you could hear my heart crying for help.
After analyzing, it has come to a conclusion that I shall not spurt any words.
Because the truth will eventually hurt you deeper.
And I dont wish to see misunderstandings between you and your daughter.
So, Ive decided to make a step back.
Its best to leave the truth unspoken.
I know I can swallow this but I aint too sure if you can.
Im very sorry.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Sunday Rantings..
Howkay, Im back.. Did groceries shopping with my mom today at JB. I had no choice but to accompany her. Nak harap kan si dektu? takpe la, 24hrs gentel buah. Thats what bitches do, isnt it?
No, I dont bear grudges and I am (unfortunately) so so mad still at her. I cant stop cursing her and pray that she'll be out of the house anytime soon.
But dont you worry, shes wont get out from the house that easily because she still need my mom, the car and $!
$ to pay her degree(which makes her more dumb by the way) and $ for her new house.
Come to think of it, what's husband for??
Whatever la.
And my mom, she is so so scared that her precious baobei get hurt by my words and action so mom is like forever reprimand me here and there.
Suck right? I know.
And the fact that my dad is not around, its making things worst! Especially when it comes to this, my dad will usually side me,u know. But now Im here all alone trying hard to stand and shield myself.
Pathetic huh?
Yeah, just waitng for alvin&chipmunks to come and sing for me,
Lonely...Im so lonely..
Oh well, on the other note, Im so lucky that I have a bunch of friends that keeps me laughing. So I dont really die whenever I get a sore treament from the family because I still have my friends. And of course my darling boyfriend. Hes forever annoying and I love that.ha!
The other person who never failed to make me smile is of course, Niq Aqimi, my little baby~my godson. Hes such an adorable kiddo.
Life ain't suck afterall.
And Lily Allen's song is cool.
Oh by the way, Im Ms Heart-Broken not because Ive broken up with my boyfriend or so. Its because my family had my heart broken into pieces.
It has been a month since Im having cold war. And Im forseeing many more months to endure.
Cheers to the upcoming days of miseries at home!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
My virgin post
I am almost done with my new blog. Its kindda cute,i felt. It kept me busy all day. Forget those miseries and utmostly that freaking-me-up couple. Go to hell you bitch!
Haaaa...Nice entry. :)