 Make it all better when i'm feelin sad Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not Make me feel good when i hurt so bad And I'm so glad i found you" 
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Make My Wish Happen
☐ MacBook Pro
☐ Burberry/Tods Bags
☐ Be Mrs Sani
☐ Morocco/Maldives
☐ Nice Renovated Own House
☑ Get Promoted
☑ Go on a last date
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Worth Reading,
Nadiah
The pasts~♥
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Thursday, July 29, 2010
Gesel
As much as I hate to say it, I guess I have to rant it.
I hit a motor bike today morning.
Sucky, I swear.
I feel like an ass now.
bah!
bummer!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
New Hit
My new current obsession : Books by Sophie Kinesella.
I-cannot-stop-reading.
Ive been reading form one book to another.
Worst still, my sister have her collection.
Im paralyzing myself to the books.
Yeah, I know its like what the fish??!!
Imagination running too wild.
I assure you I still love my current boo.
Like duh!!
Aite, back to Twenties Girl.
Toodles.
Monday, July 26, 2010
my heart is for you
My one & only wish,
to have a classy dinner with my family & my aunt's family.
That will make a total of 11 of us plus 1 baby nephew.
I've been saving money to give my loved ones the best treat ever.
Sadly it has to wait till next year due to certain circumstances.
I had my luxurious dinner with my boo, come weekend will be with my best sisters.
My family..my family..
They deserve better than the rest.
Ok dad, thats my promise.
I pray to have that day soon.
I envisage a big round table consist of dad, mom, sister, brother, bil, nephew, my aunt, my uncle & their 3 powerpuff girls.
I would love to have the dinner at kintamani, straits kitchen or carousel or who knows new halal restaurants coming up. Classy and nothing less.
Dear God, grant my wish.
Current Song: No One (Alicia Keys)
Guilt Over Conscious
One reason why I really love this blog is because nobody knows about my new existing blog.
When I narrate, I know I can narrate everything & anything bout this world.
Cause nobody knows. :)
As you know, salary is in. I was contemplating to give mom&dad 1k or 1.1k.
The devil in me says 1k is enough but the angel in me whispered to give them more.
Guess who won? The devil or angel?
I decided to give them 1.1k.
Why? because I believe they are the reason why Im here earning much. I was'nt a good child till today.
I was the black sheep in the family
They still love me as much despite my flaws although occasionally I jokingly said to them, "you have no choice but to love me because Im your child."
Besides the prayers & faith they have in me, my guilt still running in my blood as I grow year by year.
Stealing my parents money.
Yes,
I started stealing when I was 11. I cant remember the total $ that I've stole.
:(
Of course, I was caned, hammered, punched, slapped.. Tell me about it. I had blue black patch on my left eye & all over my body. The red marks & bruises by that evil police buckle. Ouch! I can still feel the pain.
Till today, I dont know why I stole those money. Definitely not the influence by friends. One thing for sure, with that stolen money, Im way too generous to my friends. Recess time will always be on me & not forgetting, Macdonalds. At that time, Mcdees was the luxurious thing on earth. Only rich people can sit in there. So I was the 'rich' friend who gave my so-called bestfriendS a treat in Macdees. A treat to tell them that I appreciate the friendships. Ya Right! Till today they dont know that it was a stolen $.
:(
Well, I was'nt a holy virgin & holy girl as everyone thought so. I keep on making the same mistakes despite being reprimanded & grounded & the physical 'abuse'.
Now that I grow older and wiser, I wished I could turn back time. Return those bucks.
I cant.
Therefore, here I am giving as much as I can every month adn twice a year I will give them more.
At the same time,
Im collecting old notes & handed over to dad cos that used to be his hobby.
His old notes are all gone because of me, the idiot.
:(
Anybody who owns old notes(bird & yusof ishak printed on it) do tell me. Exchange with me or maybe I can pay a little bit higher than the original value.
Im desperately looking for the old $25 note.
Any idea where I can find them?
Current song: Dancing In The moonlight(toploader) & Need You now(lady antebellum)
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Despite the heavy rain...
...God showered me with rainbows & smile.
Yesterday was beautiful.
At work, my manager whose now promoted to assistant director( happy for her) personally handed me the letter which I've waited for a year. A letter consist of my hard work, sweat, tears, anger & laughter.
A letter that determine my capabality at work.
This year I've got A* for my performance equivalant to 1.25mnth of bonus. That have not include government, cluster, institution bonus & my increment. Yes, its alot.
Alhamdulillah.
Ive been doing well at work despite my complaints & shits that come and go. Manager loves me. Colleagues loves me and I love them too. My career ladder is there but something is stopping me. My qualification. I need to earn the cert. Was advised by director to get at least a degree. heh... I think I can. But..but.. Im plain lazy & I love using this quote, "later can" & "wait, I'll think about it". The truth is I never think about it when Im home. Only occasionally. bleargh.
Thank god I have supportive family, boo, friends & people at work who keep on nagging encouraging me, "eh, when you going to get your cert? go study la. you're still young & you are capable to climb up the ladders. go!"
My parents even allow me to loan their $ for my studies. But I always give the opportunity a pass.
Even now, Im telling myself, i will enrol school later. Maybe next year?
Alright..
Back to yesterday,
I had my romantic dinner at carousel with him.
We had a tiff just few days back. Others says kiss & make up.
I would say dine & make-up.
That is SO us!
:)
Carousel was love. The ambience & desserts was amazing. I cant compare carousel & straits kitchen because both brings totally two different concept & varieties.
After which I hopped to Mango. They were having 70% sale. I went bizzare but managed to control my means. Im proud of that. Bouught 3 tops whics cost me at only $67. Well done Ida!
:)
Next, I bought this,
Yes, Im super convinced especially after a friend recommended me on this.
My complexion is fairly ok but that sickening ONE (sometimes unlucky it can be TWO) zit just have to pop out of my face every single month. When you see that, you know my bestfriend is along the way to accompany me for the next 7days.
That 20ml bottle cost me 20bucks. I'll do anything to get rid of that zit!
Today is my second time using it. My zit is there BUT it has flatten.
I think it works.
I hope so.
It says 7days. Will update again on this after 7days.
Good day to you.
:)
Current Song: Baby Come On Over(Samantha Mumba) & Love dont cost a thing (JLo)
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
The black sheep
And if you've been fired, it was me to be blame.
And if you cant find a job, it would be me to be blamed.
And here I am, the ignorant girl.
The story of a girl who cried for wolf.
I will shoulder the blame.
And the fact that you've made me feel so bad about the whole situation, the feeling is awesome.
Too good that it made me cry.
I wished our path had never crossed.
I wish for that.
And your screams, its been recorded in my head.
I can hear you shout.
Am I stooping too low for you?
I wish you never exist.
And here I am again,
Im going to ignore everything.
Let time give the best solution.
Im thinking of scdf as of lately.
Dont ask me why.
Im clueless.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Hear me out
Gosh, I am freaking scared. It feels like my heart is pounding out of my chest.
Im starting to survey around wedding stuffs and mom keep on telling me not to render this and not to render that.
Thats aside.
I swear I want to look drop dead gorgeous on my big day. Like which women doesnt?
The problem is Im torn between everything.
I swear I love Isabella's outfits. Look so outstanding but they are not pro in dressing up a muslimah bride.
Well, the outstanding tuding will be of course RH bridal. Everybody knows that.
And these two bridal company have nice makeup. I prefer to look subtle and elegent.
No dramatic make up especially Im wearing tudung.
It look so weird.
I give it a pass on ratu weddings definitely. Not my type of make-up. Sorry.
im confused.
Guess I need to ishtiharah.
I'll definitely get the answer.
Cos I know Allah is always here to help me decide.
He never disappoint me.
Thank you God.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Miu Miu
And....
I love my Miu Miu bag.
Never regret owning it.
:)
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Hear my wedding bells ring.
Its been awhile since I've blogged. Alhamdulillah things have been at the right track. Wasnt that easy but God has been kind and has been guiding us through out. Alot of happenings but Im not keen to update. Only today the vibe is back so here I am, blogging. Hope it will be back for good.
Mom asked me to survey wedding stuff. She said my turn will be up soon, next year. WHAT??!! NEXT YEAR??!! Omigosh.. Im having jitteries. Ok where do I start now?
Savings, yes savings! Im praying hard I can hit at least $25K.
No more shopping, ida. No more. I have to start proper saving. No more tapping.
And..and..our dream to have our honeymoon at ... I would love to go Maldives but bf wants to go to erm, ok i forgot where he wants to have his honeymoon. haha!
Well, I know we'll definitely step into Maldives just one fine day. We love travelling and of course we do have savings. :)
So here I am, settling soon.
Will I miss my singhood time?
Perhaps yes.
Perhaps no.
One thing for sure. Im scared.
The thought of my parents makes me sad.
Ok, I think my imaginary is going wild.
Lets stop here, shall we?
Good night sweetheart.
Well, I know we'll definitely step into Maldives just one fine day. We love travelling and of course we do have savings. :)
So here I am, settling soon.
Will I miss my singhood time?
Perhaps yes.
Perhaps no.
One thing for sure. Im scared.
The thought of my parents makes me sad.
Ok, I think my imaginary is going wild.
Lets stop here, shall we?
Good night sweetheart.