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Monday, August 30, 2010
Worst Experience
I have reached to a stage whereby Im facing a huge challenge myself.
That is overcoming my worst & biggest fear. Im traumatised by the incident. It came flashing back.
I became really scared. I cant stop crying. I am that scared. Something that I have never ever expericience it in my life.
Till today I get anxious whenever that incident kept flashing back. My heart punding fast and I get all terrified and that causes me to cry continuously.
For the past few days it was my mom & sister who have given me all the attention, comfort & love.
At this moment, they so knew that I need comfort & love. It makes me feel so much better.
In malay, Im having badi. Im having nightmares and the sight of motorcycles makes me all panic and scared.
I am now in a process of recovering. Im trying hard to regain back my courage & trying to forget the incident.
Mommy have been reciting dua's & surah and give a blow on my forehead. Stroke my head & face with air zam zam. She's using air zam zam to cure my 'illness'.
My auntie sent a holy water for me drink.
My sister has been giving me advice and her touch makes me feel much better.
My brother's laughter ease away my sadness.
My brother's laughter ease away my sadness.
Im trying to recuperate myself too.
Listening to al-quran cds calms me down.
Im confident that I'll be better just one fine day.
But I need time.
For the time being, Im still lack of courage to take back the driver's seat.
Dear God, I need your help and guidance.
Bless my beautiful family.
Bless my daddy too.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Journey Of Hope
I was just hoping he would be back this year. But bad news had made through in our life and I guess we'll just have to wait till next year.
Syawal will be a solemn one this year.
We are just clinging onto hope and patience.
Tears are our bestfriend.
Words cant describe our sadness.
God create our heart and He understand it too well.
It was hard.
Their tears made me weak. Each time I asked for God to lift up all their sadness, wipe away their tears and replace it with happiness, patience and hope.
As they say,
"There will be no hijab when a child pray & du'a for their parents".
I believe God will grant my wish.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
In Happy moments, praise God.
In Difficult moments, seek God.
In Quiet moments, worship God.
In Painful moments, trust God.
In Every moment, thank God.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
My first Day
Yesterday, my break fast was accompanied by mom and bil.
I was holding back my tears hoping no one see me as a cry baby.
I guess I will adapt to the situation soon.
Definitely not fine like I thought it would be.
Im falling sick. Fever & flu. Just great during the month of Ramadhan.
I lose weight when Im sick & when I fast.
And so I predict a drastic weight lost for the first week of Ramadhan.
As it is now, my appetite = 0.
3 spoon full of food is enough for now.
Im facing a rough patch.
I hope I'll get it over soon and gain back my loss.
I hate the feeling but when time passes by and I look back,
I cant help saying,
I've gone through this stage of my life and for that I've learnt.
Its all about being positive.
It takes lots of courage and determination to be one.
Well, positive thinking leads to a younger mind & body.
Till then,
Have a blessed day.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Ramadhan
Few more hours to Ramadhan,
Only God knows how we're feeling inside.
Being separated for the first time ever.
No matter what,
we will still go through Ramadhan & syawal with open heart, positive thinking and lastly redha.
May God bless us with great strength and courage.
With that,
Selamat Berpuasa to fellow muslim.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Feels like the wedding bells is ringing soon.
Only matter of time.
Apart from bf being an excited boy,
Im still having butterflies.
Im thinking of all possbilities.
But I think I will do just fine.
Lets just say that Im going to take a step at at time.
Chiaoz!
Happy Birthday Singapore!
:)
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Long weekend
Firstly,
I am falling sick. bummer.
Im resting at home hoping I'll recover soon.
Its unbelievable that my boo have been surveying for wedding caterers. He got one in mind. He started planning while Im still sitting back and relax. Not even surveying things. Maybe will do it end of this year.
My current obsession.
Staying at home accompanied by a tub of haagen-dazs which will last me till 9 Aug.
It will be great watching NDP with haagen dazs on hand.
So sedap.
Ramadhan is drawing near and Im having mixed feeling.
Celebrating ramadhan without my dad, its unbelievable.
One thing for sure, I will keep myself very busy in the month of ramadhan as to not feel upset.
For once in my life, having an incomplete family in Ramadhan.
Speechless.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Fly Like A Bird
My childhood ambition was to be a teacher or an airstewardess.
I became none of the above.
Im landed at a place where I never thought of.
What do you think of me quitting my job and start flying?
Too much factors to be include.
Flying and serving alchohol & beer. Pork?
But I feel like flying.
Maybe fly with emirates or arab saudi.
But..
I will be far from the family, from home.
Nah, nothing too serious.
Just thought of.
:)
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
The story of me & you
Im still taken aback by your shouting.
Maybe I should have just went home without you.
Maybe it will be all fine if I had just flagged a cab.
Why were you so mad at me?
What have I done to trigger your anger?
Maybe we shouldnt be together?
Dear God, please give me an answer for this.
Other than that,
I had a fun day..
With a romantic dinner.
Awesome yet tired.
But why do I have to end my day crying?
What did I do to deserve that?
My goal is to have another outing and photoshoot with a happy ending.
Another dream yet to be achieved.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Lousy Monday
Im feeling so lousy that I cried like a baby early morning.
My stupid colleague is on mc. That leaves me whole day working and Im not spared any half day leave.
It means Im not seeing dad today.
I swear I cried like hell.
Do you know each meeting is so priceless and it mean so much to me.
You will never understand me because you are never in my shoe.
You will never understand.
Im fighting my emotions over at work.
God give me the strength.
Im fighting my emotions over at work.
God give me the strength.
:(
Sunday, August 1, 2010
A Day To Remember
Last night, when I had my dinner at carousel (again), I heard liveband coming from level two. Singing Wherever You Will Go.
It was soothing to my ear.
You know, Ive always loved live band. Chilling out and listening to their singing, its rather cool.
Ive always imagine my wedding collaborate with live band. I thinks that would be the most happiest and romantic moment. But well, having thoughts of my parents, that wont happen on my wedding. Having a traditional & conservative parents, its hard to psycho them.
I have an annoucement to be made.
I will annouce when it officially happened.
Till then,
Good Night.
Current Song: Wherever You Will Go ~ The Calling