 Make it all better when i'm feelin sad Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not Make me feel good when i hurt so bad And I'm so glad i found you" 
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Poison Words~♥
Desires~♥
Make My Wish Happen
☐ MacBook Pro
☐ Burberry/Tods Bags
☐ Be Mrs Sani
☐ Morocco/Maldives
☐ Nice Renovated Own House
☑ Get Promoted
☑ Go on a last date
NuffNang~♥
Gossips~♥
Escapes~♥
Worth Reading,
Nadiah
The pasts~♥
Bitter-Sweet Moments ,
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Designed : Yours Truly♥♥
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Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Flying On A Jet Plane Soon
Just like the other day,my another dream came true. It may sounds weird but the dreams I had lately came true.
I dreamt alot. People involved in my life.
I dreamt her being preggy. It came true. But thats not what I want in reality. I dreamt bout my dad so many times. I was so happy then. I felt his presence. I heard his laughter. I see him smile. But I cried when reality woke me up. I cant stop hoping that it came true,one day.
Im emotionally stressed, for sure. Crying myself to sleep is not fun.
Ive made up mind to go for a holiday in June. Hope andak wont disappoint me. We planned to go bangkok.
Time for me to go.
Im tired of the house. Im tired of the faces at home. Im tired of cooping myself in the room.
Im tired. Im so sick of listening to my mom and aunt telling me to control my emotion, reminding me not to let the secret out to relatives, stay united. Why should I stay united when you didnt even give me a chance to let me cry my heart out?
Hello?? Do I look like someone who go around knocking people's door and asked for sympathy?
And in my 24 yrs of life, relatives and family was not even there for me when I needed the most. So why the hell you're telling me not to this and that??
All this while,my friends are the ones who have been there for me throughout.
Why tell me now?
Why?
And how I envied my friends and boyfriend's family, they are so intact. Moved as one. Why cant this happen to me and my family?
I cant help it but to point fingers at everyone because it was not my decision to be here.
I wished I was given a chance to choose my own family.
At one stage of life,when my mind has made up, its final.
For sure, I wont regret and blame others because it was my own decision.
And they say I should be happy because Im going to be an auntie soon.
I am an auntie. I have godsons & god daughters.
If you are referring to her,then,
Sorry,Im not interested at all.
My love for them, had went astray,far away.
Its lost.
And do you know Im looking for a part time job. Yeah Im thinking of working on sat & sun. Im not desperate for money but Im desperate to be in my own world.